Don’t be deceived this picture doesn’t do the bump justice.
35 weeks!! I know I still have a few weeks to go, but I am ready for this baby to come out (besides the fact that we don’t have names picked out) and praying I do not go late. The boys have been ready for the baby for the last month, but I have to keep reminding them that we need the baby to keep growing otherwise it will be in the NICU for awhile like Grace and they definitely do not want that because they are already calling dibs on who gets to hold the “new baby” first.
This pregnancy has gone by so quickly even though it seemed everyone told me it would be tough to be pregnant during summer, it seems we have been so busy that the heat hasn’t really bothered me. Now with the boys starting school in a month, I have been prepping all the school supplies and uniforms to make sure it’s taken care of before this little one makes its debut.
Being pregnant this time around has been a lot different than with Grace, other than monitoring my progesterone levels everything has been looking great, hoping it continues. Still I have a lot of anxiety about labor and delivery and everything surrounding it. Will I have to have another c-section, will there be complications, how will the kids adjust, how will Grace handle everything she is still such a baby, will I be able to give enough attention and love to each of the kids, what if I am in the hospital on the boys’ first day of school and the list continues.
I am trying to remind myself that this is God’s timing and in his timing he will take care of the details. These beautiful lives he has gifted our family with and with it the ability I need to be the mother they each need. Uncertainty about what the future holds, but knowing he holds it. Letting go of what I can’t control and allowing him to control it.
A friend sent me a link to a prayer called A Novena of Surrender, with the beautiful words “O Jesus, I surrender myself to you, take care of everything.”