Caden is officially one month old, brings tears to my eyes to type that as did it to put away the extra newborn diapers and newborn clothes that he only fit into for 3 weeks! He is literally growing like a weed right before my eyes. I can’t believe how fast his first month of life went!
I am begging time to slow down and trying not to allow piled up laundry and a messy house to take away my time from holding him every chance I get. Allowing myself some extra slack when I feel like I should have it all together. Even if it means freezer pizza for the third time in a week, pulling a pair of uniform pants out of the hamper and dust bunnies on my dresser.
I want to cherish this time and have it etched on my heart instead of the stress and sleepless nights that can so often attempt to steal away the moment. Yes our life is busy, crazy and messy, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Well with the exception when all four kids are having meltdowns in a 30 minute span.
Truth be told I was really anxious and nervous about having a baby. Would I have enough love to go around, enough time to give, enough patience to show. I never imagined how my heart could be any fuller than it already was, it all changed in a second the moment Caden was born. Somehow the love just deepens, expands and becomes more real in somewhat a miraculous way.
We recently celebrated Caden’s baptism. What a joyous and beautiful celebration! With four kiddos, including a babe and an active 21 month old I sometimes don’t catch all of the readings or the homily during Mass. Snippets here and there, probably just enough of what the Holy Spirit wants to make sure I hear and pay attention to.
On the day Caden was baptized the priest mentioned during the homily dancing before God in praise and gratitude for His goodness. The words couldn’t have been any more perfect to reflect the thoughts on my heart that morning. How can I ever repay God for His goodness, His faithfulness, for the gifts He has given. I can strive to always dance before God, during both the sleepless nights, the endless diaper changes and the morning snuggles and hugs. May my heart always be praising, my feet dancing and my life a reflection of His love.