A few months ago I had a dream of our little boys running up to me, arms out stretched yelling “mama”, falling into my embrace and laying their head on my heart. I didn’t want to open my eyes. The moment was far too beautiful and all too real. I just wanted to stay in it and capture the image forever in my memory.
So many years I have wondered, imagined and dreamed of having children, creating a family. Picturing how our life would look with little ones in it. Although the picture is different than what I thought of seven years ago, it is just as beautiful and just as loved!
Years filled with dreaming are now soon becoming a reality. As our adoption journey continues to move forward I simply can’t hold it together. My heart is bursting with so much hope, gladness and thanksgiving!! My reaction to each step of progress is instant tears of joy! Tears of joy to an extent I have never experienced before and they keep coming.
Yet after so much dreaming I am finding the reality to seem surreal, abstract. Over two years of waiting, paperwork and planning I can’t believe this is finally going to happen!! As I mentioned before I figured we would be scrambling to get everything ready and I can officially say scrambling has ensued!
Finally cutting the tags off of clothes that I have purchased here and there and had set aside over the last couple of years, (as if I could have returned them 1+ years later).
As beautiful as that dream was I cannot wait to see it in real life!!